nessa was practically bouncing on her way home.
cause of the happy songs, (that thing you do)
which is not really happy.
but it was upbeat.
so it made me happy.
i think today was generally a good day for me.

meeting was mad.
although my fiancee decided tot run violent and throw newspaper at my face and gave my an injury.
oh so painful i might add.
but i still love you.
and i have no idea why we played wacko during meeting either.
father came.
had some kind of reflection where we had to list out our crutches.
both negative and positive.
gosh.
it was kind of difficult it guess.
to identify them.
actually i only had one negative crutch.
only one to mention i mean.
noe i could identify.
but i overcame that.
yes i did.
kudos to nessa!

i met christie after meeting.
to write love letters to laurie!
laurie dear.
i think you should know.
that i love you so.
and when you come back,
give me a call and wish me happy birthday!
haha.
remember!!
and i know about vijay!

mass was alright.
father commented about our nice little artwork.
and made a pretty good homily about it too.
one i actually understand.

there is nothing much to say about dinner.
except that peter left his drink and went home to shit.


i'm happy today cause i did what brother said.
i let it all out.
brother.
an inspiration you are.
gosh.
what am i to do without you?
i think brother rocks.
plenty much!
although i only kinda talk to you online.
and sometimes i cry when i do.
you never fail to listen to what i have to say.
thank you!


erm.
thank you.
haha.
i'm going to say this once and for all.
i won't send emo messages anymore.
unless you make me emo and i get upset and send you messages like that.

thank you precious!
i got no more picture to put already.
so i put up this pic.
cause it looks like you.
in my imagination.
hahaha.

thank you for the talk.
and for trying so bloody hard to be patient with me.
haha.
i know i'm stubborn sometimes.
and i won't make the same mistake again.
but i don't dare to make a promise.
cause i'm liable to repeat mistakes.
but!
let me say this.
i'm trying.

that talk we had.
gave me some sort of closure.
for pet.
and the gaps we had between us.
i guess she wanted me to realise that i can let everything out.
not in tears.
but in words.
different people work different ways.
you say that maybe so many problems arised cause we couldn't click.
no no no.
its jsut that since things have changed, and she has gone.
i've found it even more difficult to open up.
but you were patient.
thank you.
i needed that episode of pet to end.
i think she is resting in peace now.

i love you pet.
i always do.

i don't know why i'm thanking you and saying i love her.
well.
its something like starting anew.
doubts might come along the way.
OH NO!
NESSA SHALL NOT HAVE DOUBTS.
yes.
and she shall put all she has into all the people she cares about.

one last thing for precious though.
i want you there.
full stop.
so if i message you.
and you don't reply me.
then its not my fault.
understand?
haha.

and i can't wait for 13th.
its pretty much planned out.



amanda and drey;
you all must be wondering why i cried.
well.
opening up takes alot.
and letting you see me cry takes alot too.
i hope you know that.
i hate people seeing me cry.
i really hate it.
but still.
i didn't hide myself when i cried was because i kinda want you both to see me when i'm vunerable. emotionally i mean.
its something that i don't do everyday.
and those little notes i send to you.
the both of you.
i mean them yeah?
they come from the bottom of my heart!

lexine;
sorry dear.
maybe you're angry with me right now.
because i didn't pick up your calls.
i was talking.
and it was geting kind of emotional.
and i didn't feel like answering to any questions.
and i didn't hear my phone too.
cause it was on silent.
sorry.
forgive me alright?
love ou plenty!

sheryl;
rahhh!
i miss you!
and the chinatown peanut paste and almond paste feast!
and we missed out on the mango thingy too.
and walking in the rain!
and stupid pictures in the dressing room!
rahhh!
bottom line.
i miss you please!

shabin;
if you come online and see this.
i hope you do.
i just want you to know.
i miss you.
and all the stupid crap that never fails to make me smile.
even thinking about you makes me smile.
you dumb monkey you!
i know i don't call anymore.
but you just seem so busy.
and miss girlfriend, i miss you too!
call me soon if you see this!
cause i kinda miss your abusive-ness too.
haha.
it shows that you care.
right?

miss jane!
rahh!
i don't know wat to say.
thank you!
=))
love you plenty too!
it is only between us!
no one else matters.
get it?
cause its our friendship.
no one else's.
yupp.


nessa.
you're tired.
your fingers are.
and your mummy is getting angry.
send one last message and you better be off to bed.
goodbye.
and goodnight.
:))